I'm sitting at the pub, somewhere quieter. It's right after sunset when the sky isn't orange, but it's not quite dark yet. I'm sitting in a “casual but still trying to look cool and I want people to notice me but don't want people to notice that I want them to notice me” way, as you do.

I see her turn a corner, long legs, not super skinny but in a way I love, medium length skirt, cardigan, tank top under it. I notice a hair on her head, i want nothing more than to brush it off her face while she looks into my eyes, my eyes wander down to look at her cleavage “man I'm a fucking creep”, I look down on the ground as if I was scanning up to down in her general direction in case someone has been watching me. I think to myself why anyone would watch me, I don't look particularly good, in fact, I believe I'm quite ugly. I chuckle slightly while a nail is driven in my heart, “why would she look my way” looking at her hurts now, reminds me of how I will never have her or anything like her. I look at my pint, mostly empty with one gulp left. I take it, warm and wheaty, not particularly nice but it's worse to waste beer. As I'm lowering my glass our eyes meet, not even for a quarter second as she's walking by. I feel myself shrink up and a pain in my chest, I immediately look down. Maybe 1 second after she passes as if to confirm my own lustful worthlessness I briefly look at her ass. “Pretty good” I thought to myself then looked at my empty pint.

My friend enters with two pints

He sits down and I take a drink

“Any women?” I say to him to make conversation

“No, not really. You?”

I look back, she's gone.

“Nah me neither.”